Trust and Friends and how they are lost.

This week was probably the worst week of my life. First of all this monday, I had a fight with my buddy, who I've none since 1st grade (we met in kindergarten but didn't talk much). She hasn't talked to me for a week now. I've been writing letters to her and begging her to forgive me. For what? Well here's what happened:

Well, we were planning a party for Miss G our teacher and Bria and I and a few other people are buying a DVD player for her. But, Armani doesn't want us to buy it because she thinks that we are going to take all the credit and not help pay for the pizza. This is what Bria told me. Then I told Bria that I'm going to go clarify it with her that we are not going to take all the credit and Armani was all, well you know how Bria is. But I know personally that Bria is understanding, and I know she will understand. Please note that Bria told me not to tell Armani, but we are still going to buy the DVD player. I didn't think this was right, my conscience would bug me if I didn't tell her, because if we didn't tell her then it wouldn't feel right. Does this make me a big-mouth? Maybe it does. But I was just trying to do the right thing. Okay, I know no one reads this blog but I just wanted to make this known, maybe out f some miracle Bria will read this and understand why I did what I did. If only she gave me 5 minutes to explain myself. I'm sorry Bria, for telling Armani about buying the DVD player. But at least you guys aren't fighting. You know, if we bought the DVD player without telling Armani, she would be really mad at Bria, I didn't want that to happen. Armani and Bria probably know each other longer than I have known Bria, and I don't want their friendship to suffer. Maybe this is just an excuse for me to be a big mouth. Maybe not. Maybe I was right. I don't know if Bria will ever forgive me. I want her to though. I had my reasons, which I thought were right, maybe I wasn't ,maybe I was. I wish Bria could understand. If she never forgives me than....I just lost a great friendship. You know, I cut my hair this week too, its really short now, it was long before. I wasn't going to cut it that short . I cut it shorter than I wanted because I was really sad, I thought it would make Bria say, "OMG Perry, you did this because of me? Okay I forgive you." But it didn't happen that way, I guess she didn't care. Maybe no one cares anymore. I also failed my Vocabulary test this week, I got a 65%, actually I took this test like 3 weeks ago but I got the test back this week, which makes THIS week a lot worse. Probably the worst week of my life.

Blogging makes me a lot better. It lets be let go of some of my feelings. I can`t talk to my mom about this she doesn't understand.