Anger

Bria is still mad at me... :( Besides I didn't tell Armani that we were going to buy the DVD i just asked why she didn't want to. She said (Bria) I was nothing but a poison apple in her life and that she was better off without me. That made me break down. But I didn't cry (well I did but my bangs covered my face) because I didn't want to attract attention. Maybe she is better off without me. But I was just trying to help. I didn't mean to make her mad. Why was it such a big deal. Life is unfair. I felt like dying when Bria said that. Hey, she talked to me :)(. Maybe everyone is better off without me. I'm not that important. I mean if I died wouldn't someone who wanted to go to Bronx Science get to go? Wouldn't my parents have more money? Maybe I am just poison in a world of apples. Maybe I should just forget it. I can't. I just can't. This is going to be MY ghost in the closet, something I will always regret. One day, I'm going to make her forgive me. I'm probably going to go to HELL for this. Maybe I am untrustworthy, my other friends don't think so :). But BRIA does. I don't want to ruin my mac by crying on it. I'm just going to stay away for awhile. Maybe it will be the best thing to do right now. I'll see what happens. The good news is I went biking with my cousins and baked mini cheesecakes and banana walnut chocolate chip muffins with rafaela and that nun that lives in her building :).